exasperating.

there's a difference between living life and merely being alive

kalau hari-hari busy cari duit and end up with buat maksiat guna duit tu nama living a life tak?

or struggle belajar sampai lupa makan lupa solat lupa semua semata-mata nak straight a's tu living a life?

or hari-hari buat benda yang kita suka tapi at the same time tak rasa any joy pun buat semua tu but still,buat jugak tu nama living a life?

kau rasa yang mana lagi bahagia ;

orang yang kerja bagus,duit tak habis guna tujuh keturunan,muka handsome tapi tak pernah rasa bahagia sebab orang kat sekeliling dia pandang duit dia je,tak ikhlas kawan dengan dia and dia tak pernah kenal Tuhan,Islam merely written on  I/C tapi hidup liberal tak ingat.

Or orang yang kerja biasa-biasa je,duit cukup-cukup nak tanggung family, muka so-so tapi flow hidup rasa tenang je sebab ada anak-anak yang baik belaka,sebab prinsip hidup dia kejar akhirat dulu,cari erti hidup dengan cari Tuhan dulu.

dulu aku rasa orang yang asyik nak tegur orang buat ni salah buat tu salah tu sceptic gila tapi at the end of the day,benda tu dah jadi kat aku,nak tegur orang rasa diri sendiri tak cukup bagus lagi,and stuff.

dulu aku keluar cukup ah sopan sikit,tak terdetik langsung niat nak tutup aurat tapi sekarang dah fikir jugak lah mana elok mana tak,mana tutup aurat mana bungkus aurat.

dulu orang nyanyi nasyid or even better doa yang dah dinasyidkan aku tak rasa pape tapi bila adik sendiri dah  buat jugak aku rasa intimidated jugak ah.macam 'asal aku tak pernah dengar' feeling struck tetiba.

When I was seven, I wonder why they're so happy with their life,with no proper clothes to be worn,never even tasted McDonald or any fast foods in their life and They don't even have money left after spent it for lunch.But they still enjoy living life.

Now I know ,life is not all about money,life is something more than that.life is unexplainable,

different people define life differently.

 Hidup ni kita pinjam,

bukan hak milik kekal,

hak milik Yang Kuasa.

Deal With It.

tak payah nak it's my life sangat ah.

p/s : aku tak faham apasal ramai sangat memuja orang yang diaorang tak kenal asal-usul,

        yang kalau nak difikirkan takde benda boleh belajar daripada diorang tu,
        takk,bukan range Anwar Hadi dengan Mat luthfi,yang tu aku pun minat.
        Ouh aku lupa,ye ah manusia zaman 2020,

        kena famous ah baru cool, apa kau buat apa kau pakai tolak tepi.

        yang penting cool.ye dak?

17 and proud.

Assalamualaikum,

It's January 1 and apparently,my Birthday.

Born January 1

You are a respectable and strong-willed person who can easily intimidate others simply because others are in awe. You are a highly independent person, although without others around you, you cannot keep control! It’s not that you need to control everything, but you do like having the upper hand, and you generally are reasonable as a leader as well. Your willpower is enormous if you choose to use it, and certainly takes you far. Fear of success and fear of failure are possible downfalls for you—while they are different fears, they lead a person down the same path of accomplishing less than what they are capable of.

Alhamdulillah,still alive.seventeen years of my life was filled with a LOT of joy,laughter,tears and mistakes.I'm expecting for a better tomorrow.Thank You Allah for all these years :)

ouh and thanks for all the wishes,whether they're through FB or Twitter or Phone.

Special thanks to ;

Siti Nur Syahirah Shukri
Nuraida Idora
Hanani Fairus

for your sweet posts on my birthday :)aspecially to momo lah,7 freaking stanza man!Awesome XD
and also for Maahadian excos for singing two songs for me :) I almost cried okay, you guys are soo dayyum suhweet!and for the stalker either :) okay BOTTOM LINE,

THANK YOU !
and a HAPPY NEW YEAR :)

May Allah be with you guys through every seconds of 2012 :)

Allah,

All I want for 2012 is a great year filled with amazing and inspiring peoples and the strength to live through this life with faith and the desire to achieve something.And 9 straight A's for SPM and for my Iman to grow, my heart to fond and my attitude to change,into a better one of course :) AMIN.

I feel good.I lied.

Assalamualaikum :)

                    Entah apasal,aku dah tak nampak any joy kat TV or movies or shopping or even in the internet. macam takde feel dah.Semua benda macam serba tak kena.On mp3 2 minit dah rasa nak off.On TV tengok lappy,bila lappy on rasa nak tengok TV.One thing I realised,I have a huge responsible that will be lifted on me next year.I'll be 17 this Sundayyyy SAYYY WHATTT :O okay can't write much.Rasa macam tengah midlife crisis tapi choyy sangat baru nak 17 c'mon lah.I should stop exaggerating small stuff  like seriously -,-

Hidup bahagia bukan hanya diertikan dengan senyum ketawa riang gembira,

Hidup itu untuk Akhirat.

Living here for the hereafter.

-HLOVATE-

Doakan aku?

aku nak cari Tuhan.

Aku tak yakin kalau Allah tarik nyawa aku esok, takda benda yang aku nak kesalkan.

Aku tak rasa aku lahir terus kat Dunia ni as a Muslim,

dah jadi satu Confirmation untuk aku stay Muslim sampai mati.

Aku pernah sekolah kat Maahad tiga tahun.Terfikir jugak apa lah jadi kalau tak masuk Maahad.Maybe still lagi swimming?hanging around with Chinese swimmers jela kan.Tapi masa tu pilihan nak masuk Maahad bukan aku yang decide.Memang aku rebel masa tu.Dulu otak sceptic aku fikir nak kena tudung labuh baru hafal Quran, Nak kena pakai kopiah baru la sembahyang.Okay ini sangat typical kot, tak pakai tudung-JAHAT. Pakai shorts-TAK SEMBAHYANG. Ada KLCC tapi maju tak kita ni sebenarnya?Have some good thoughts about others.Kadang-kadang diaorang tak tahu pun Islam tu apa, jadi apa salahnya bagitau? Muslim kat overseas boleh solat kat mana-mana je,sebab sometimes even Surau,pun takda.Kita semua dah siap,Masjid gah sungguh.Untung tak untung tu?

Hidayah tak datang bergolek kalau tak dicari

Aku rasa cam nak cari ah.

Kau?

 Dah besar nanti boleh toss coins lagi tak kalau tak sure dengan decision?

eh,Allah ada kann :)

I always knew.

I'm just, procrastinating.

p/s: takda kaitan dengan yang hidup atau yang sudah meninggal dunia.

         Ini coretan impian manusia,

         Mencari Hidayah daripada-Nya.

.NO OFFENCE.

Peace Be Upon You :)

Nerd is heard.

Assalamualaikum and Hi :)
So Yesterday, we went to Putrajaya.
Ayah has something to work on so my sisters and I decided to spend our not-so-frequent  hangout together at Alamanda.
I'm not gonna write much.Now let the pictures tell the rest.

Now that, that's my Polaroid wohooooo :DD
Alhamdulillah at last I've got it.

This is Afifah *wuu I sound nerdy haha
yeahh she's my sister and she's the one who bought that polaroid for me,
so yeahhh,
 I'm so not gonna write anything bad about her,not here not here.
HAHA :p

 shortly,this is how the polaroid works.

and this is Afiqah *I sound nerdy again I know -,- I'm totally taller that her,

Camera,you have a huge explanation to be made y'know.dayyum! 

Saya Nerd,saya okay. 

So yeah I've got an early birthday's present from mom and sisters.Ibu gave me A Doctor In The House and the rest are from my sisters.

I'm a happy nerd now.Thank You So Much :) haha

p/s:For Once in three months at least,

everyone are home.

I have a huge reason to be thankful didn't I?

Alhamdulillah thank you Allah.

it's a week before my birthday

and apparently 10 days before school's start.AGAIN.

gimme a break -_______________-

Chemistry and Biology ONLY.

little that I know knowing that I'm left with two more subjects only,at least out of nine,

 IS JUST THE BEST FEELING EVER!

now let me rot in my lair.will ya books?

THANK YOU 

Buenas Noches Queridos :)

Devastating.

Aku penat.sangat penat.

And I don't have anyone that I could at least talk with tonight.or to be precise, within this few weeks memang aku malam-malam tengok Youtube je*at least ada orang bercakap dalam tu.

or Homeworks, of course.

No actually, I've had so much fun watching football with dad.tadi,tuu semua tadi.

but now semua orang dah asleep,and I was like, c'mon esok ahad kot -,-

nampak nii?

and this?

okay apparently, this stuff making my day, well-planned.

got what I mean?

when you know you HAVE to get everything done by the time you need it done,

then THAT'S what causing me to make a schedule.

Daily.every. single. day of my holiday this year.

It doesn't really feel like a holiday actually.

cause as you can see, long way to go dude,very indeed.

I don't have anyone by my side to chat, y'know like chilling out, bursting how great today is for me, for I'm able to breath.still able to live.Alhamdulillah.

Tapi,takda.takda orang.so I was like takpa, Allah ada (:

but still, weii kalau semua yang berbintikan dan berbinkan Yusof ada kat Rumah.Yang kat Akhirat nanti berbinkan dan berbintikan Salwah ada,semua ada kat sini.

that's just the best thing.

imagine, I can't even remember when was the last time everyone were home.

makan bersepah kat hall,pergi shop sama-sama,maybe masa raya kot last.kot.

okay rasa ada yang dah dapat, aku rindu kat korang kayy,very.indeed.

aku rindu nak cerita kat sisters aku crush kat *text missing* haha okay itu joking.

aku rindu nak dengar ceramah debaters. lol :p

aku rindu nak kena marah sebab I just threw my stuff,everywhere.nanti ada manusia-manusia yang akan mula membebel 'Heyy, If you're a girl, act like one'.

and aku macam lalalalalalalalalalla and i'll just on Mp3,baca novel Or kalau mood tengah baik,

ikut la cakap,kemas la sikit. buat orang puas hati kan.

and rasanya tak pelik kalau aku cakap aku texting dengan ibu,dengan ayah masa diorang kat Sabah.Aku cerita dengan ibu Zahin Masterchef dah keluar dan betapa remuknya hati masa tu.Choyy.haha.Aku ngedog ayah sebab rintihan hati dia keluar paper.ouh and aku tak cerita dengan korang aku gaduh dengan atuk sebab aku terkutuk U*N* masa perhimpunan hari tu?seronok siaaa,comel gila atuk marah.haha.and now kalau aku Facebook-ing pon mom is by my side.and aku akan cerita lah manusia-manusia yang aku jumpa,yang aku kawan.

ibu angguk jelah padahal tengah cakap kat phone.teruknya lah sampai macam tu sekali ==

see?betapa teruknya tahap nak bercakap dan mengacau orang?sampai orang yang tak berdosa jugak kena? LOL ayat menyampah.

okay rasanya I've spilled partly apa yang aku nak cerita kat korang.

balik nanti dengar aku cerita.kita lepak rooftop.okay?

aku dah beli Marsmallow.kita tengok abang abang balik surau.haha

ouh lupa,

guys, abang cakap dia rindu semua.us.

and that day He called me :)

kesian lettew adik tinggal sorang.

tak balik sapa suruh -,-

p/s:Nabi Muhammad S.A.W cuma dapat tengok gerhana sekali je seumur hidup Beliau.

tapi kita? banyak kan?

sedar tak maksudnya?

Allah nak tunjuk Manusia,semua Hamba-Nya, How Great is Him.

yes, this is one of the sign of His Greatness.

sebab , manalah tahu, ramai dah lupa.

and this is also the sign that, Kiamat dah dekat.

Ouh Allah,Tetapkanlah Diriku,kedua Ibu-bapaku,Guru-guruku, dan

saudara-saudara seislamku di Jalan yang benar.Aminn.

ouh and Aku baru tahu rantai Owl tu Haram.

haihh ada kat heading pulak camna ni :/

nanti tukar okay,kalau free.

summoning life :)

Now tell me what's more awesome than having the feeling like

you're attached to each an everyone that ever exist in your life?

what's more mesmerizing than owning a real big happy family?

now eventough ayah ibu tadok kat sini,

siblings as well.

don't you think gramps and granny and aunts are real big help when

your parents ain't there by your side?

because I've been feeling it,right now :)

and trust me,

be thankful with everything that you've had.

cause anyhow You'll know why.

diet coke,laksa Johor,hot Choc,Marshmallow.

awhhhhhhhhh what a lifeeeeeeeee :B

p/s:Define Homework.

a Holiday Spree.

and trust me,I lied -________- entirely.